never leave any stone unturned

friday- nothing much the usual.went out after school to some park then to the carpark where took pics.then send all home and went back to aunts place.no mood at all.never even talk to the kids.sorry guys!!!then eoke up and came home and slept.i was too irritated and angry that i vented it on mi sleep cause for the past few weeks i cant get peaceful sleep.i feel people are tryin to tell me smth in mi dreams cause its the same ppl everytime...




sometimes i wish i never met ppl in W16p for the simple reason that we are gonna be seperated very soon and that is the day i really dread.we became more than friends.well wishers and guardian angels for one another and when we had conflicts with one another,we always knew that we can stand up by them,all those pointless presntations where we will be lyin our way off and those times in admiralty park and the the commando jumps at vanessa house the swings.(by the way i am listening to the song if today was your last day by nickelback as i am typin.)and nana who always fought with me but the end of the day she stayed up with me till 9pm at her place comforsting me and vanessa takin promises from me that i will break away from the bad habits althou she gives me lenientcy eugene for goin out with me and creating troubles and afeeq standing by my side.these ppl realli left an impact on me.thanks vanessa and nana for trustin me and tellin ur personal things even thou i know u all for bareli 3 months?alot of things happen and i am sure that the contact will slowli go down..but nana seriousli i never expected u to react like that when i told u about the thing at the staircase at adeline house and vanessa thanks for reminding me of my boxing and tryin to control me and at the same time giving me my space when i just needed to.u ppl are all great and i think after being with u all i realised alot of things...




seriousli i do not know whtat to do in ur case.u came into mi life and haunted me.u will never know who u are becuase water and oil can never mix but let me tell u i will be there for u when ever u need me bacuase after 3 years,i fell in love and this time i realli am lost and do not know what to do.i will confess to u one day but the day is not anytime soon.this is beacuase friendship and relationship does not mix.friends can be lovers but lover cannot be friends.for the simple reason there mite be the sense of repulsion.you seriousli changed me.i am not who i used to be.........lets hope u r my other half at least let me live in those memories.call me coward i dun care ..u literalli came and swept me off.y must i ever see u in the first place?boxing and bikes were mi source of rotation but now it has been u and i am afraid.those 5 ppl will know why am i worried.thanks for being there the 5 of u all.i will fufil ur wishes.keep it as a promise i make to u.

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Today i am wearing informally formal...

yesterdae--after school went collect mi provisional driving liscence with vanessa and eugene.then we abit late,this eugene suggested that we cut thru the whole stretch of bush and he said real man will not be scared of all these.so we cut the path.in the end na bei got no way to walk....then managed to go to the driving centre and then collect the whole thing and went back home.....

life is hard and u gotta be harder than it......

Saturday-went to sentosa for the sports club thing at the morning.i reached 10am on the dot and ugene and adeline also reached about that time.how ever the wonderful president was late by 1 hour.but when she came she profusely apologised.so we were like never mind la.then made our way to palawan.then they wanted to play volley ball so me and eugene went tomplay.the worst ball game sia.we hit the ball abit only the ball fly to malaysia.then we sat down and play game.that was when i found out that they all mi age.Fuck sia they mi age but year 2.......i was shocked.then me eugene adeline left home while i went for the tournament.wah piang eh OHM is gettting better and better every tournament.chee bai and here i am like a slacker.must start training alreadi.but i just cannot find the fire in me alreadi,maybe because i do not think of mi past anymore and it makes me become more habitual into mi new life which is damn slacking?no point sayin but i atill think that mi new life is nicer with new friends and and i do not have to constantli worry about gettin into troubles and do all the nonsense.......

Ranting point(u can leave now,this is where i rant if u all dun wana read please leave)

i don not know waht the fuck is happening to me..i know what i am doin is not rite but mi friends and all have told me dun stop tryin but i realli dunno what to do..i will do all that is rite and i dont care what hte fuck u ppl think!!!