As of yesterday.....

just bear with me.my last whining post.today i kana another big blow.smth which i cant accept.never mind.i am gonna chnage everything.mi msn to mi hp no.and onli those close to me will get it.cause i am not used to these things.................

I need to get this off my chest now.

ok.there are somethings goin on in my life which was totally unexpected.I really did not know this will happen.Its like the first time and i can feel i am surrounded by liars(expt school ones and some others),i am sayin liars because i am being kept in the dark all thiese while and if stuart did not help me out,i will be probably getting into deeper crap.i dun know wats so scary abt expressing the truth.And now everything is changing is it for the better?i realli dun know because love and friendship is like oil and water.lovers will expect all the love from you and your friends will expect you to be with them all the way.Ok.i a just goin on because i just dun like it sometimes.In life we have to make decisions but this kind of decisions are very hard.Trust me.And mi best friend is putting his life for me and i mean his life.If we are discovered,he will get one big time.Maybe if i had not seen anyone all these will not happen.I am damn pissed with the fact that u can go on and on when the attention is not realli there.After all change is the only unchanged.Only he knows now.And i trust mi best friend with mi life.after all we had been thin and thick together.if you are trying to make me feel wierd,try your best.cause i can read ppl well.mi feeling sense is always rite.Seriously u changed mi way of life.Girls will be girls la somehow.

A quote from stuart=guys make decision on logic.
girls make decisons on emotion.

i just cant digest the fact that all these has hapenned.heart realli pain man...and i the one stuck behind or is it the world thats moving in front of me???

I am confused(as usual)

i have a big problem now.I love bikes to the point where bikes come first then its girlfriend.But now i suddenli start to think that i mite take car liscence first then i shall ride a bike.this is because of some problems i had due to bikes.I still have the passion for bikes but its just that the problems have made me think twice.Cars may be nice but expensive and i cant always drive my dad's one.he has to also go work and if i am to do anything i will have to seek his permission but for bike,its mine.I really dont know.I have beeen changing a lot.I am scared seriously i am not used to be who i am.And i have started to feel fear after the incident.There is someone above us all.Gone were the time where i will say die die ones la.now its like think before you do.AND ONE LAST THING,IF I EVER FIND OUT THAT YOU LIKE ME.YOU WILL BE FUCKED INSIDE UPSIDE DOWN.NOT BECAUSE U LIKE ME BUT BECAUSE YOU DID NOT TELL ME EARLIER!!!!!NOW IF YOU THINK YOU HATE MY POST.THEN FUCK OFF.I AM LIKE IN A SUDDEN MOOD CHANGE.DONT TRY ME!!!!!!!!I WILL BREAK IT YOU BEND ME TOO MUCH.

I AM THE AMBASSODOR FOR RACHEL NOW

I MISS BOXING SOO MUCH!!SEE THE PIC SO NICE>HAIZZZZZZZ

HELLO.DAMN TIRED FOR THE THE DAY.Just came back frm camp.wahhh.students now days are pests.By the time i teach them how to shoot,i felt like taking the gun and shoot myself.Thousand and one questions.Lucki i was in army uniform if not one nice middle finger would just do the job.lol.hahahha.finished.met mich and stuart.then went to wet market steal the styrofoam box and cab back home.Then using com.and i was goin thru rachel blog and omg her blog ictures she damn pretty.last time also she pretty but now the camera effects and all macham like miss Singapore sia.And she looks nice on long hair.And i have been given permission to be her ambassoador.I tell you ah when she comes out on teenage mag u all better buy.If not u all die!!!!!!!!!!!!!lol.hahahahahha,if u all think who is she,this is her:)