I am confused(as usual)

i have a big problem now.I love bikes to the point where bikes come first then its girlfriend.But now i suddenli start to think that i mite take car liscence first then i shall ride a bike.this is because of some problems i had due to bikes.I still have the passion for bikes but its just that the problems have made me think twice.Cars may be nice but expensive and i cant always drive my dad's one.he has to also go work and if i am to do anything i will have to seek his permission but for bike,its mine.I really dont know.I have beeen changing a lot.I am scared seriously i am not used to be who i am.And i have started to feel fear after the incident.There is someone above us all.Gone were the time where i will say die die ones la.now its like think before you do.AND ONE LAST THING,IF I EVER FIND OUT THAT YOU LIKE ME.YOU WILL BE FUCKED INSIDE UPSIDE DOWN.NOT BECAUSE U LIKE ME BUT BECAUSE YOU DID NOT TELL ME EARLIER!!!!!NOW IF YOU THINK YOU HATE MY POST.THEN FUCK OFF.I AM LIKE IN A SUDDEN MOOD CHANGE.DONT TRY ME!!!!!!!!I WILL BREAK IT YOU BEND ME TOO MUCH.