19 november

TODAY-last day of school la.si bei sad.and i fought with adeline.a joking jokin one.thats all.
YESTERDAY-WE WERE PLAYING BASTARD BALL YESTERDAY!!!!!!.then adeline and nana wanted to score in order for me to tell the truth to the person.but they so damn damn cock till they cant score at all.how how stupid can they get.haiss.then goin home.i kana 2 messages.nae bei.mi mood switch off totalli sia.i fuckin was so boilin deep inside.then i decided lets go back to mi old life.then cb go home muscle pull.in the end plan must push till this friday.kanina bae.i realli cant believe i recieved two blows at one time.fuckin damn hell.


and after i think alot thru i think its time i should go evn thou everyone knows i cannot.this is because the feeling is so fuckin hard and i know that if i am goin to go on in this way,i am goin on in this way,i am never gonna survive.haisss.i got what i wanted the ever lasting friendship and trust.so i am just gona go on and see hw it goes.thank u all for cheering me on even when u all knew its not possible even in a small way.i can rant and rant and rant cause its a very painful issue.i am afraid.seriousli afraid after seeing mi brother's marriage,i have seen a ultimate fear in relationsip and life long survival.how to convice them at all?i think i shall just be myself in my life and go on.u all will not understand cause u will never feel it until u all have to suffer.maybe the other half is not born or not able to fit with me.given mi attitude,u think i can sustain very long???i just cant be at a place fo long.so lets see how everything i go.i will always remember u.no matter waht