Well.wat hurts the most is that we were so close and every small actions of u makes me worry.we had shared happy and sad memories together and we have had many common similarties as well as many differences.i don’t know wat happen but nowdays it is not the same cause we feel separated.i know I have tried and I am still tryin and I will still try all the way.but well sometimes there is such thing we call fate.when mi coach called me and told me about mi boxing,I did not feel much pain cause I rather cherish the moments I had with u.i gave everything up for boxing and I now I chosen u over boxing.i dunno la..maybe I am not courageous as I used to be.i just have one last thing to do before I actually leave from it.but I dunno if I can anot.that is the thing because I loved u a little bit too much even thou I know I cant get u..no one knows this.onli god knows what will happen in the future.i dun care who say what I am goin on wih what I planned.there may be many rumors but let me tell u I fuck care all of them.u r the one that really changed most things.i don’t know if u read mi blog but I am postin this just to make sure.some times the hope is there but well reality just sucks all the time.they play with human life cause hope is the only thing humans hope a bit much more.sometimes I know I cant get u but but I dun care at all. I just like to live in the dreams that I am gona be with u mi whole life.this is like one of the longest post in mi new blog and I am whining.this is not me at all.i used to do anything I wished.but now I think of mi family and mi friends thanks to u.alot of ppl have come and gone but none stole mi heart.i cant be bothered with girls(used to)but after seeing u I think I have changed mi impression.u will never know who u r.u know y?i am in such a suitation.i want to be with u but I dun wanna get married cause I have a phobia after seeing mi brother marriage planning.so much financial plans and so much stress.i just have the phobia.imagine we get married and we cant sustain long due to mi attitude?i am afraid.cause u r someone who deserve someone who loves u more than u love him.and is able to take care of u.althou I can do that,I think we have other issues as well?let me just tell u.i can list more than 10 things that u like.cause every small thing u do leaves a big impact on me.i wished I never met u,got close to u,share anything under the sun.BUT LET ME TELL U.IF THE PRIZE IS U,U R WORTH FIGHTING.NEVER EVER CHANGE FOR SOMEONE.U R THE BEST U R.i just hope boxing will be mi picking up point.it used to cheer me up and I wanted to be the best martial artist in Singapore and train people to go to olymipics.but now I have to do soul searching.when u look me in the eye,I just cannot talk cause I have some shock over u.but let me tell uu.no one and I mean fuckin no one will ever come close to u and harm u.if that happens,that person has to go thru me first.cause no matter what I will always take care of u.cause u r the best the way u are.now u cheer me up in the morning and I enjoy the occasional butterfies flyin in mi stomach when u talk to me.

With all mi loves, u know who I am:D